The Black Shadow Over Your Head

As promised, first of all the pictures from the Sunrise Party...the second picture is copyrighted by Tom (this isn't me) from sessionfreaks.com

And there are always times when we feel bad. It's the depression time once again. It doesn't matter how happy you've been before. You will always fall down again. The happiness stops or isn't enough any more and you sit there, starring at the ceiling and think of the good old times where the things you had were all you needed to feel the absolute compliance. I don't really know if I'm already in this crappy state where everything will go wrong. Where all of your friends seem to stop understanding you. You start to recognize that some of them didn't understand you in the first place and this fact is even more depressing. It's like trying to be perfect. You try to make the persons you care about happy. You try to do everything to see them smile another time. Someday, you wont be able to make them smile. You fail. You don't trust yourself anymore. And you fall... down to the darkest places of your inside. Trying to hide in the dark shadows from the pain haunting you.

Sorry for sounding like a emo, but there were really times I felt exactly that way. I felt like whole world is against me and nothing can go right. Some things happened in the last few days which make me feel a little depressed. Hopefully it gets better soon.

greetz from the dark inside.